its hard finding inspiration these days. i’m getting older and older. days are getting shorter and shorter. accomplishments are at a stand still. what do i have to show for since you? you’ve pursued your dreams and i can’t even come up with mine. you’ve found your voice and i’ve lost mine. i was so ‘together’ when we met. i had everything i needed and you were the bonus. all of my future aspirations seemed attainable with you in my ear. and now i’ve continuously thought of what i don’t have and simultaneously make decisions that keep me from those things. i find love over and over and over again. it never works out. i make friends in high places, socialize. they just want one thing. i was blessed with a lot of advantages and it seems all fall by the waist side. til this day there’s nothing i want more than you. not for your love or for a probable relationship but for your heart, your reassurance, your support, your faith.